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I'm different from what you think I am; knowledge is worth more than thoughts.
Ex-close friends, and their way of implying things
What's been really bugging me lately are people who try act nice to you but really don't. Ok so my "friend"; actually allow me to address a synopsis:Let's name this friend Terence. (Sorry, I couldn't think of another name that didn't sound so cliché like BOB. And I love to use him as a target XD -Vyvy, you can tell him) And yes, I'm still mad about this. -__-
Well so Terence and I dated for almost a year until we broke up. Like within the relationship, I was the dominant one; I risked everything and all that jazz (Going to Toronto or wherever outside of Ottawa that's about more than 5 hours away). I gave Terence money whenever needed and put my "needs" before his. Well, because I felt like I would be a better boyfriend if I did. Eh, I was apparently.--- Ok back to the point-- we went out, all that stuff and we broke up.
Knowing most of you, I told you what the hell happened. Like I'm going to emphasize this again: DISTANCE DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU TRULY LOVE SOMEONE. IT'S NOT IMPOSSIBLE... SO HOW THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I BUSSED ALL THE WAY DOWN FOR YOU? Matter of transportation. Fucking no brainer!
But yeah so recently, we've started to talk again. I had to break the ice and shit by saying hello and I abruptly went personal but not nosy enough to call me nosy. So quote:
Me: So how's the love life
Him: Not interested, and not looking o_o
Me: Oh really? Why's that.
Him: Because you don't have to be with somebody all the time...just saying.
^ Uh, you're with somebody all the time unless you're in solitary confinement. And as if you said that to me. That was so fucking blunt why didn't you take another approach on your statement. I've went through almost 3 boys after you and now you're just a bitch? Like what the fuck?
So he says he's not looking... and so he says, "I'm just saying". Idiot, do you think I'm a dumbass because I act clueless most of the time? You're just oblivious and it thrills me that you get so angry over not-so-very serious things. I booked him lying to me because I was talking with another friend of mine and he said that Terence is camming with him saying "I can't believe I'm falling in love with you already." Terence has no idea that me and that guy are really close friends.
And to bring up the "why so serious, when it's not serious" talk, it angered me because he asked me why I was trying to start up something. For fuck sakes, why would I start something? Are you dumb? And even if I did, I have the authority to be mad because you put no fucking effort into the relationship. Calling me clingy? You should be thankful I did everything for you. I should be the one calling you a gold digger. Don't give me that "I never used you" bullshit. I'm realizing how stupid I was...
Even now, I still ask for a visit and all you fucking give me is "no I'm good".
After all those arguments, YOU CALLED ME CLINGY, A LIAR, but what? What are you? You're such a slew for materials and you lie to me. You're worse than being clingy. AND NO SHIT I WAS "CLINGY", long distance relationship? You'd always make me feel bad whenever I go out with the "fine... ditch me" shit. So I'm obliged to text you or something. But whenever you go out, you're so annoyed with me so I leave you alone. And yet you still complain because I neglect you? Count your blessings.
God this was a waste of time -___- but I swear so was he. Just wanted to get this off my back. and LOL it went from 3rd person to first person. This rant was just out there. So yeah hahahaha.
Finally ranted.
On Wednesday, July 22, 2009 at 4:45 PM
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I Lied to Myself
I still miss the last one who said I love you before superman. Yes, I thought I moved on quick because I also thought I was strong enough to just let go. Thoughts, thoughts and more thoughts?!I don't know, maybe I miss you, but it's the fact that I don't want to go back. Let's just keep going; even if it hurts just a tiny bit. But if whatever happens we end up holding hands again, I'll be sure to say "don't let go". <3
But for now, I don't want to spoil anything I have with other people. Down low? Perhaps. But hey, this hippo wants you to know I'm still here. And whenever you need me, John Yip has room for more than one to hug.
Read this guys, I wrote down what I was thinking around 3 in the morning. My writing got a bit lopsided but it's still legible :D:
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On Wednesday, July 15, 2009 at 11:24 AM
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As much as I tryit's hard not to cry.
I claim that I'm strong enough,
but emotions have become a rough.
"I love you" was rather thrown back and forth,
at a careless range like walking through an unlocked door.
Was it really sincere? Was it actually for real?
I know I was, and for sure my thoughts that was at appeal.
But no, I doubted my own theory and motto;
Knowledge is worth more than thoughts in sequence of a lotto.
Yes, I am very frequent upon discussing my feelings.
For that I need a filter; not hidden faces and identities.
So forth I'm still moving; forward as many of you can say.
Living life to the fullest and recovering from delay.
At first and foremost, I still smile with who made me sad.
Eventually one day, there's going to be somebody who will always keep me glad.
In summary of who I may think of that will be,
is certainly, what the future keeps as a mystery.
John Yip, 2009
Labels: emotions, Poem, randoms
On Tuesday, July 14, 2009 at 5:56 PM
Just to start fresh
Originally I posted blogs on my xanga, but what's the point of posting it in a place that's completely desolate? Well whatever! Here I am, on blogspot. Trying to stay with the "program".Wow, I have to make a distinct highlight of what happened yesterday. Ok so, it was the first time I got cheated on. I felt a little bit of betrayal, however; it's my own fault. I put too much trust in someone that I just met and allowed myself to believe in his words; I'm too easily love struck. So here's the story:
This one day, he informed that his ex boyfriend was coming back to visit from Hong Kong and asked me if he should go see him. And I, being selfless, didn't want to sound so insecure so I told him it's better off seeing someone you won't be seeing as often as you would be. Being trusted, he hid himself and drowned my cellphone in text messages of what he was doing. It was normal but it was too casual for me to think that they haven't done anything intimate. Having myself being mislead in his words.
A week later, he confessed that he slept the night with him and stuffed words in my mouth and forcefully vomited out. That he broke up our relationship on my behalf because he cheated on me? I was willing to to give him another chance because in more depth of his reasons, he thought this relationship wouldn't work out. His doubts... his doubts? Is that it?
In any case, I'm mostly over it. Haha ^^;
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About me
Check it: John Yip. Call me that or whatever name you want to call me. I love and care for those keep a smile on my face--- having me being selfless; I care for others more than myself. Likewise I'm a very nice person! No, I am not being over-confident or being a prideful narcissist. Rather I'm being who I am and who I claim myself to be: I'm homo. Kthx
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